Reality

These few days, I have been thinking a lot. Looking at my friend’s pictures taken during hang out and their smiles on their face, it has been a while since I put that smile on my face. All those laughter and excitement slowly fade away. I am no longer having this feeling anymore. All the feelings I having now is just loneliness, disappointments and exclusion. When you have a quarrel with one of the ‘gang’ members and get booted out, it certainly means that you’re out of the ‘gang’ no matter how hard u tried to fit into the ‘gang’ again. It’s like a baseball game where three strikes and you’re OUT but you still can get back in the next game. But this is much crueler where one strike is needed to get your butt kicked and you’re out of it forever. It would certainly never be the same again. Never. Because there will always be a mark. Therefore, there is no point to cry over spilt milk though it hurts. There are some friends who went elsewhere to study and out of nowhere, you feel yourself no longer clicked with your old friends anymore. They might be busy with their assignments or hanging out with their new friends etc. Sometimes you feel the connection is no longer there and a gap is growing between you and them. Life cycle they called. Some people also said nothing last forever. Life is not like a bouncing ball. No matter how elastic the ball is, the force you used to bounce it, the ball won’t bounce back with the same amount of energy you put in. There will always be some energy depleted. The same concept applies to our life. No matter how good you treat people not only your friends, you can’t expect them to treat you back as good as you treated them because most of the time, they will always think what you have done for them not what they have done for you. They might also use you for their own purposes. Nowadays, it’s also hard to find sincerity in friendship. Therefore, unfairness is always there. How positive your thinking is, there are some days you can feel the unfairness. Love it or hate it, you still has to deal with it. You can agree with me or not. It’s your choice.